David Beckham delves back into the hateful treatment he received following his infamous 1998 red card 害羞草研究所� and its impact on him 害羞草研究所� in a new Netflix documentary series pegged to the 10th anniversary of his retirement.

害羞草研究所淭his whole process has been like an emotional rollercoaster,害羞草研究所� Beckham said of the in an exclusive video interview with The Associated Press. 害羞草研究所淚害羞草研究所檝e never talked about these certain moments in my career and in my life.害羞草研究所�

The intimate four-part series explores Beckham害羞草研究所檚 upbringing, his courtship with his wife and his triumphs on the field, but perhaps the most difficult part was revisiting his painful sending off during England害羞草研究所檚 World Cup match against Argentina.

害羞草研究所淚 hadn害羞草研究所檛 actually watched it and I hadn害羞草研究所檛 actually watched the interviews and what people said about me after,害羞草研究所� he said, adding that it left him 害羞草研究所渟hocked and emotional.害羞草研究所�

Beckham was red carded for deliberately kicking the back of Diego Simeone害羞草研究所檚 leg. He lashed out after the Argentina captain pushed him to the ground. England害羞草研究所檚 World Cup hopes were crushed, and Beckham instantly went from hero to villain.

害羞草研究所淏eckham害羞草研究所� includes footage of the hatred the soccer star received 害羞草研究所� condemnation in British tabloids and constant fan abuse, including one who hung his effigy from a noose outside a London pub.

害羞草研究所淚 knew it was bad at the time, but going over that whole that whole thing was quite a tough one,害羞草研究所� he told the AP.

The backlash continued throughout the next season.

害羞草研究所淚t wasn害羞草研究所檛 just stepping onto a football pitch, it was every time that I went out in my car and people stopped me and spat at my window and you know, all of those things, and then walking into a restaurant knowing that everybody in there hates you.害羞草研究所�

Best friend David Gardner recalls how Beckham even had to be accompanied by friends in the bathroom for his safety, yet never retaliated.

Despite the full support of Manchester United fans and club manager Sir Alex Ferguson, Beckham said there wasn害羞草研究所檛 the same knowledge or concern about mental health that exists now.

害羞草研究所淏ack then there wasn害羞草研究所檛 anyone turning round to me and saying, 害羞草研究所楢re you OK? Are you sure you害羞草研究所檙e OK? Let害羞草研究所檚 talk about it.害羞草研究所櫤π卟菅芯克鶟

Even his own family struggled to understand. 害羞草研究所淭wenty five years ago, if I害羞草研究所檇 have turned around to my dad and said that I don害羞草研究所檛 feel great, he would have said, 害羞草研究所楤oy, just get on with it害羞草研究所�. So that害羞草研究所檚 how I grew up and that害羞草研究所檚 how I knew how to kind of handle a situation like that,害羞草研究所� he said.

害羞草研究所淚 became, I wouldn害羞草研究所檛 say a cold person, but I was able to block things out that were challenging and difficult for me at the time害羞草研究所� he added, saying it helped him grow as a player and as a person.

害羞草研究所淚害羞草研究所檓 not a person that sits and reflects on past achievements and things like that害羞草研究所� Beckham said, explaining that he learned from an early age that you can win a trophy and celebrate that evening, 害羞草研究所渂ut then the next day you害羞草研究所檙e on to the next season and you害羞草研究所檙e on to something else. 害羞草研究所�

The first episode, which debuts Oct. 4, explores young David害羞草研究所檚 upbringing in Chingford, Essex, and his relationship with his father.

害羞草研究所淗e was a very disciplined dad from a very early age. And when I didn害羞草研究所檛 play well, he told me and when I did play well, he kind of told me that I did play well, but not too much,害羞草研究所� Beckham said with a smile.

It had always been his father害羞草研究所檚 dream that his son play in the premiership for Manchester United and it soon became their shared dream, turned reality. After being spotted by a scout playing on London害羞草研究所檚 Hackney Marshes, Beckham moved to Manchester at 15. The tough love continued under Ferguson. Their partnership helped Beckham win six Premier League titles, two FA Cups and one Champions League.

害羞草研究所淲ithout a doubt, me getting out of London at that time and becoming a Manchester United player, in the north, surrounded by unbelievable people 害羞草研究所� that for me without doubt helped me have the success and have the career that I had had and have,害羞草研究所� he said. 害羞草研究所淗aving the discipline of Sir Alex Ferguson possibly was one of the biggest reasons why I was able to succeed.害羞草研究所�

But the discipline didn害羞草研究所檛 rub off when it comes to his own four children Brooklyn, , Cruz and Harper Seven, who all appear in the documentary. Beckham admits his wife is 害羞草研究所減retty strict害羞草研究所� and he finds it hard to lay down the law.

害羞草研究所淚 always thought growing up, if I was to become a young dad, I would be like my dad. I would support my kids with going into football and be hard with them. But I was nowhere near like my dad was. I害羞草研究所檓 a bit of a softie.害羞草研究所�

Meeting Spice Girl Victoria Adams was a pivotal moment in Beckham害羞草研究所檚 life. She was already a global superstar as 害羞草研究所淧osh Spice害羞草研究所� and he was a rising talent with Manchester United.

害羞草研究所淚t wasn害羞草研究所檛 something that normally happens, you know, a footballer and a pop star coming together and the pressures of that but also her being on the world tour, me really wanting to see her. But obviously I couldn害羞草研究所檛 travel. So, we used to sneak around.害羞草研究所�

He said they managed to keep their relationship secret for the first few months and then 害羞草研究所渢he explosion happened.害羞草研究所�

Beckham害羞草研究所檚 teammate and close friend Gary Neville jokes on 害羞草研究所淏eckham害羞草研究所� about the pair害羞草研究所檚 long phone calls into the early hours before a game and says Beckham would drive for four hours just to spend 20 minutes with her.

Part three and four of the series were not available for review prior to Beckham害羞草研究所檚 interview, but those episodes explore his explosive fallout with Ferguson, his sale to Real Madrid and tabloid allegations of Beckham害羞草研究所檚 extra-marital affairs.

害羞草研究所淭here are pressures, but you work hard,害羞草研究所� Beckham said of his marriage. And despite press speculation, the couple recently celebrated their 24th wedding anniversary and remain a united force.

害羞草研究所淚 suppose that害羞草研究所檚 one of the reasons why we害羞草研究所檙e so, so strong as a couple, because, yes, we have amazing kids, we have amazing careers, but we 害羞草研究所� make time for each other as well.害羞草研究所�

Beckham害羞草研究所檚 career spread far beyond his success as a player to cultural icon and entrepreneur. He was a trailblazer for collaborations with brands like Adidas, Armani, Breitling and more. While players weren害羞草研究所檛 really doing similar deals at the time, he said it felt like a natural progression enabled by his success on the football pitch.

He knew early on that 害羞草研究所淏rand Beckham害羞草研究所� would broaden and lengthen his career if he could achieve a good balance.

害羞草研究所淚 always made sure that whatever I was doing off the field never affected what I was doing on the field because that was what I loved and what was important to me.害羞草研究所�

His business savvy culminated in , Inter Miami.

害羞草研究所淚 had the opportunity to play in different countries, move to America, obviously have my own franchise and my own team, become an owner,害羞草研究所� he said. 害羞草研究所淪o then once I finished playing, I knew that the moment I finished playing, I could then jump into the business. But, we were working on that a long time before that.害羞草研究所�

Looking back on his career害羞草研究所檚 highs and lows, it害羞草研究所檚 natural to wonder: Does Beckham have regrets?

害羞草研究所淒o I wish things hadn害羞草研究所檛 happened? Absolutely. Do I wish 害羞草研究所�98 hadn害羞草研究所檛 happened? Absolutely.害羞草研究所�

But he said he realized it all happened for a reason.

害羞草研究所淚t made me stronger as a person, as a player, as a human being, and as a father, as a husband,害羞草研究所� he said. 害羞草研究所淎nd if that hadn害羞草研究所檛 have happened, I maybe I wouldn害羞草研究所檛 have had the career that I had.害羞草研究所�