Like many young girls, Abby VanderMeulen dreamed of being on stage in a pageant.

But she never thought of herself as worthy of trying.

害羞草研究所淚 was always that kid who got picked on in school, bullied. I was not one of the popular kids. I wanted to do this, but I never thought I was good enough,害羞草研究所� says VanderMeulen.

Years later, VanderMeulen is returning to her childhood dream by entering the Mrs. BC pageant, which is sponsored in part by Black Press, who operates this newspaper.

She is also hoping the people of this area will step up to vote for her online for the People害羞草研究所檚 Choice Award, which can be done or go to directly to the Observer害羞草研究所檚 website at www.saobserver.net and click on the contests tab.

In addition, the event supports the Cops for Cancer charity effort and can be made as part of VanderMeulen害羞草研究所檚 effort.

害羞草研究所淚 saw the ad in the paper and I thought it was time to give it a try害羞草研究所� It害羞草研究所檚 a once in a lifetime thing for me, to do something I really wanted to do when I was much younger. It害羞草研究所檚 a big step out of my comfort zone.害羞草研究所�

VanderMeulen is open about her struggles with depression as an adult. It has been a difficult journey to wellness and VanderMeulen believes this is another step in her healing process.

害羞草研究所淚 talked it over with my family, with my psychiatrist and they have all supported me doing this. It害羞草研究所檚 something for me, for my self esteem, to help me grow and feel empowered. There害羞草研究所檚 a lot of busy things in my life and doing stuff for everyone else. I did this to make myself a priority for one weekend.害羞草研究所�

VanderMeulen害羞草研究所檚 platform is going to be as an advocate for mental health. Her sponsors include Rob害羞草研究所檚 Office Doc and Blaine Ready from Shoppers Drug Mart, who she notes has been a helpful source of support during her journey with depression.

After seeing the newspaper ad, VanderMeulen sent an application and then had to participate in a phone interview before being told she was accepted into the contest. Since then she has begun her preparations in earnest for the event, which takes place on Canada Day weekend in Langley and Surrey.

First on the agenda is learning to walk in high-heeled shoes.

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She害羞草研究所檚 also working hard to prepare answers to possible questions which will be posed during both private interviews with the judges and on-stage questions. And she害羞草研究所檚 working to put together her outfits for the event, including casual, office wear, sportswear and evening wear. On a tight budget, VanderMeulen has been scouring thrift and consignment stores in search of an evening gown.

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There is also a talent component, which has to be completed in two minutes. For this VanderMeulen will be using her skills from selling Tupperware to bake a cake in that time.

害羞草研究所淲ith the help of a microwave, it can be done,害羞草研究所� she says.