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害羞草研究所渊耻辫.害羞草研究所�

害羞草研究所淭hat isn害羞草研究所檛 you.害羞草研究所� (peals of laughter)

Young people have a sometimes heartless way of being completely truthful.

It害羞草研究所檚 a good thing. I think.

In this case, the 12-year-old in our home was looking at a calendar.

For a fun Christmas present for his mother, I害羞草研究所檇 had a calendar made, including shots of pets, past and present and random shots of family members.

Included (I believe I was Mr. July) is the shot you can see to your right of some young guy who may or may not have been me a couple of years (OK, decades) back.

As the boy was sifting through the calendar, correctly remembering every dog and cat, he stopped on that particular month and wondered who the person was.

Looks at photo. Looks at me. Looks back and photo. Looks back at me. Then, hilarity ensues.

Ouch.

I thought of the calendar and in particular, this photo, the other day.

I realized that in almost all of my dreams (the ones I can recall when I wake up), I am seeing myself from a detached perspective and I害羞草研究所檓 almost always a younger version of myself.

Sometimes as a boy, but almost always as a young adult.

And always, always doing something athletic. Running, jumping, playing sports.

If there害羞草研究所檚 any dream analysts out there, hit me up.

My own layman害羞草研究所檚 view is that it害羞草研究所檚 because, thanks to some unwanted surgery, I can害羞草研究所檛 do much of that anymore.

And since it was a primary focus for most of my life, I miss it. So I think my subconscious tries to help me out.

But probing a little deeper, I wonder just how differently we see ourselves throughout our adult lives.

Now, I害羞草研究所檓 used to my current self, but at least once a week I scare myself getting out of the shower.

害羞草研究所淲ho the hell is that?害羞草研究所�

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Then I chuckle at myself.

Reminds me of the time I was getting fitted for a new suit before my son害羞草研究所檚 wedding.

Suit guy brings a couple of jackets for me to try on, then starts measuring me up.

害羞草研究所淲ow, you害羞草研究所檙e pretty big through the shoulders,害羞草研究所� he said.

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害羞草研究所淒id you used to work out?害羞草研究所�

Another ouch moment.

Similar to when I drive to work, and the 1980s hair band tunes are playing and I害羞草研究所檓 still younger me, then I step out of the vehicle and the 害羞草研究所榮nap, crackle and pop害羞草研究所� brings me back to reality, and I害羞草研究所檓 not having cereal.

It even happened just minutes ago.

One of my colleagues noticed the photo and said 害羞草研究所渢hat害羞草研究所檚 a strapping young lad.害羞草研究所�

害羞草研究所淵es, yes it is,害羞草研究所� I said.

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Oof.

At this point, you just have to laugh. Happens to everyone.

And it害羞草研究所檚 never an issue if I can avoid the mirror first thing in the morning.

But am I curious to see how others see themselves internally, or when you害羞草研究所檙e dreaming.

Is it current you? Long-ago you? A mixture of both?

Let me know, I害羞草研究所檇 be fascinated to hear from you.

PQB News/Vancouver Island Free Daily editor Philip Wolf welcomes your questions, comments and story ideas. He can be reached at 250-905-0029 or via email at philip.wolf@blackpress.ca.